mixed emotions...

just reached home not long ago. meeting at mushi's hse ended at 10.45pm today, and i think it would have gone on if all of us do not have to work the next day. there are just so many things and details to discuss le! its mentally and physically taxing, but i thoroughly enjoyed it! cos i know i'm doing everything for Him :)

hmmm, dunno where and how to start...

ok, lets just say that my day was one filled with mixed feelings and emotions ba..didn't start the day too well..woke up at 7.45am and had to rush to take cab..again -..- so frustrated with myself..grrr...dunno when i can overcome this habit of taking cab to work..expensive lor, $12 per trip leh..duh..anyway 1st half of my day was pretty much it - not really in the mood to joke or talk to people. and things got worse after lunch lor -.-

well, lets just put it this way. just realised that someone isn't being as truthful as one might have hoped. i thought things have taken a change for the better but apparently he didn't. initially when someone told me that I couldn't quite believe what i just heard. But after confirmation from a reliable source, my heart just sank for a moment. i was thinking: why must he do that again? don't understand, really really don't understand..i give up..give up as in give up finding out the reason why he did that, not give up on him as a person. cos Jesus never gave me up, so i believe i should treat him the same way Jesus treated you and me. I guess all I can do now is to pray for him ba...

getting tired. its been a long day after all..and all i have now is only 5hrs or so of sleep waking up for work.. -.-