escape...

was a tiring weekend, mentally. cos i was trying to escape from something..not sure what exactly that 'something' was..ok ok i do know but...

there was an overwhelming inflow of thoughts..not exactly negative per se..but more of like disturbing thoughts you might say...people, happenings, and some of my past 'hauntings'..

visited the Swami Home in sembawang yesterday evening..everything seemed ok at first. chatted with my cg monkeys..charlene was kinda lacklustre though..maybe exam stress? hope she cheers up soon...anyway the programmes got underway..with this 'clown' making balloons of looney tunes characters for the old folks..impressive, although the constant whistling did get a bit on my nerves towards the end..prob i was tired..thats why...middle-aged people singing old songs with funny lyrics soon followed..and last but not least our monkeys doing the tribal dance..although the coordination wasn't quite there but..well done guys and gals! :)

then came the mooncakes..distributed them to the old folks..and i started chatting with this 84yr old grandma..not sure if anyone can recall, but she was the one with the balloon lantern which the clown made for her..i saw her sitting in one corner, moving the lantern up and down..as though playing with it..i approached her and started chatting with her..thankfully she speaks cantonese..so not a prob there :) i could actually feel myself really having a conversation with her..and not talking to her for the sake of talking you know what i mean?..we chatted for a good 15mins..and before i knew it, i had to leave. was kinda disappointed though. huh? so fast ah? i told her sorry that i have to leave already..dun exactly know how to describe my feelings at that time. maybe cos i always have a soft spot for the elderly..especially cantonese speaking grannies..maybe they remind me of my late grandmother whom i had a speacial bond with..aiyah please lor..its been 13 years already alvin..so..anyway i stood up, walked out of that place and nv looked back..