escape...

was a tiring weekend, mentally. cos i was trying to escape from something..not sure what exactly that 'something' was..ok ok i do know but...

there was an overwhelming inflow of thoughts..not exactly negative per se..but more of like disturbing thoughts you might say...people, happenings, and some of my past 'hauntings'..

visited the Swami Home in sembawang yesterday evening..everything seemed ok at first. chatted with my cg monkeys..charlene was kinda lacklustre though..maybe exam stress? hope she cheers up soon...anyway the programmes got underway..with this 'clown' making balloons of looney tunes characters for the old folks..impressive, although the constant whistling did get a bit on my nerves towards the end..prob i was tired..thats why...middle-aged people singing old songs with funny lyrics soon followed..and last but not least our monkeys doing the tribal dance..although the coordination wasn't quite there but..well done guys and gals! :)

then came the mooncakes..distributed them to the old folks..and i started chatting with this 84yr old grandma..not sure if anyone can recall, but she was the one with the balloon lantern which the clown made for her..i saw her sitting in one corner, moving the lantern up and down..as though playing with it..i approached her and started chatting with her..thankfully she speaks cantonese..so not a prob there :) i could actually feel myself really having a conversation with her..and not talking to her for the sake of talking you know what i mean?..we chatted for a good 15mins..and before i knew it, i had to leave. was kinda disappointed though. huh? so fast ah? i told her sorry that i have to leave already..dun exactly know how to describe my feelings at that time. maybe cos i always have a soft spot for the elderly..especially cantonese speaking grannies..maybe they remind me of my late grandmother whom i had a speacial bond with..aiyah please lor..its been 13 years already alvin..so..anyway i stood up, walked out of that place and nv looked back..

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can't stand the way she works
can't stand the way she works
can't stand the way she works
can't stand the way she works
can't stand the way she works
can't stand the way she works
can't stand the way she works
can't stand the way she works
can't stand the way she works
can't stand the way she works

tired...

tired.....

legs are aching..from all the standing and running..

but still, i feel good on the inside.. :) sgt yeo came today..haven't seen him since dinner at billy bombers a few months ago..hope he re-joins our troop real soon..i'm sure all of us misses him...

and to all my sheeps..i love u guys:
the forgetful sheep
the slow sheep
the emotional sheep
the noisy sheep
the softspoken sheep
the blur sheep
the chorlor sheep
the bochup sheep
the black sheep
the skinny sheep
the obese sheep (not so now..lol)

jiayou people! jiayou...

ouch!

my arms hurt!! can't straigthen them at all..thanks to the training yesterday evening..we did gym for abt 45mins, 3sets x 8reps of chin-ups (assisted of course..), and a 2.4km run..that was enough to kill..considering how long it has been since the last time i did all these.. -.-

countdown to IPPT: 21 days..
criteria to pass: (note that i'm only going for a PASS..not bad already, still got $100 lor..hehe)
sit-ups >> 33
Standing board jump >> 221cm
chin-ups >> 5
shuttle-run >> >10.6secs
2.4km run >> >12:40

with some extra effort, i think these targets are achievable.. :)

i've come up with a simple work-out regime to help me shed the unwanted tire (according to CL) and build up my muscular endurance:
Mon - crunches (2sets x 50reps), lower leg raise (2sets x 50reps), diamond push-ups (2sets x 20reps), spider push-ups (2sets x 20reps), bicep curls (2sets of 10reps)

Tues - RT

Wed - crunches (2sets x 50reps), lower leg raise (2sets x 50reps), diamond push-ups (2sets x 20reps), spider push-ups (2sets x 20reps), bicep curls (2sets of 10reps)

Thurs - 2.4km run

Fri - crunches (2sets x 50reps), lower leg raise (2sets x 50reps), diamond push-ups (2sets x 20reps), spider push-ups (2sets x 20reps), bicep curls (2sets of 10reps)

Sat - Swimming

Sun - RT

but of cos i got to watch my diet as well. hmm..means that this saturday's BBQ i can only eat abit only...sad leh -.- but bo bian, need to forego some of the luxuries and delicious food for the time being...haha..

mission: possible?

tomorrow 2nd session of RT..kinda looking forward to it..hahas...i mean why not? i get to leave work half an hour early, get a free workout and plus i still get paid for it lor!! LOL...where to find such a package? only in SAF man..hahas..my motto for the next few weeks: "Come RT, must be happy..anyway no choice already.." LOL...

this time i'm really determined to lose SOME weight and clear my IPPT asap, else RT will be extended, and that will also mean i'll miss another few weeks of service .. :( does it seem like i can do it? hmmm...shan't comment too soon..hehe..

better get more rest today...need at least 7hrs of sleep before strenuous exercise the next day..SAF TSR says so... =P

getting old?

buurrrp..excuse me...just reached home not long ago..met up with my sec sch kakis shuen, kc & mel for supper at 802 kopi tiam. shuen initiated the meet up..难得sia...hehe...

topics revolved around our work, relationships, future, plans to settle down etc...made me realised that we are in deed no longer as young as we used to be..废话right? duh..haha.. -..-
but its really true lor. few years ago we were still talking about army life and some other bo liao stuffs like soccer? lol...but now? things have changed, we're at a different stage of our life where we really need to do some serious thinking & planning. can't afford to be as carefree and bochup already... -.-"

*yawn* die..2am liao..tomorrow month end reporting begins..better get enuff sleep, else report wrong numbers to WT..wahaha...zzzzzzzzzzzzz.............

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to a certain you out there:
You'll never be able to fully ACCEPT people's advice/opinions until you STOP thinking so highly of yourself. Unless you tell me that you're so unbelievably arrogant that you don't need any advices, then i got nothing to say. you tell me you need encouragements and reminders. but if these aren't gonna help you solve your problems, you know what? i'm not gonna give u any, cos they only make you feel better, but doesn't remove the root of your problems.

It doesn't matter how much u know or you think you know, just knowing things won't get you anywhere. you gotta have faith in the TRUTH and show it through actions. The bible says: 信心没有行为是死的。you can rebuke whatever we tell you, but you can never do that to God's words.

That's all I want to say, the rest is up to you.